Play nice Nero??  it’s the only way to win




Who cares? We’re all drenched in sin



If I’m a backstabber, then you must have been my mentor



Learning your game and taking you down wasn’t hard to master
I would want to live longer...


I've defied demons both real and my own...
I am a sword of madness, held by the sheath of calm...
I was the future. I was the past. I am the present...
This is my life and how it unwinds..
I've defied pain of all sorts...
I am a shield of calm, beaten upon by the hammers of madness...
My life was. My life is. My life will be...
This is my life and how it finally soared...
have defied hatred in all its forms...
I was a flower, a rose trampled on the ground...
I was dying, I was saved, I am growing...
I would want to live longer...


I am the way to the city of woe. I am the way to forsaken people. I am the way to eternal sorrow. Walk with me My Flock, to The Clockwork Orange House of Fun .....
I would want to live longer...


See,Reasha no one respects the flame quite like the fool who's badly burned and Nero's Flock realizes how you betrayed them. How you let them down. How you let me down. What about me? What about NERO?
I would want to live longer...


If you want to join Nero's flock,Reasha you have to be yourself. You have to be true to who you are. You have to be unafraid to be different, to be laughed at, to be scorned. That's all it takes to follow me.So it is written. So it shall come to pass.
I would want to live longer...


You see, scars are souvenirs you never loose, the past is never far. But what do you do? What do you do, when all your memories are razor blades? When everything you can possibly remember, hurts? What do you do?
I would want to live longer...


Crucified for the sins of my humanity ... Crucified for the sins of my compassion ... Crucified for the sins of my past ... By the flesh of my flesh, and the blood of my blood, You will crucify Nero, NEVERMORE!
I would want to live longer...


Have you seen reflections, emotions in the others eyes?
Have you stared love in the face, seen it in the eyes?
Have you seen love die in those same eyes?
Seen all that hope, how it is gone, how it just dies?
Have you felt what it feels when love dies? To be left alone?
Have you felt when world falls around you? How you are there alone?
Is there life after that? Is there anything after that pain,
anything after you seen that? After your life has gone in the drain...
I see nothing, all is just gone, drown in my pain, gone for vain...
I have no reason to live, I have felt my soul to die, my soul to be slain...
My life is so useless, worthless, meant nothing to the other, like a love,
it was just there to die and be gone, my love meant nothing, just gone...
I would want to live longer...


With a few words, my heart is torn,from my pain, only sorrow is born...Finally, behind the lies, my life I can see,dreams collapsed, there is no hope for me...Words of love, tarnished lie, all they burn,once love now gone, forever, ashes to turn...All those lies, in front of my eye, now flashes,what once were my love, now only remain in ashes...Tainted ashes of love, only feed the seeds of lie, blown in the wind, to seek a victim, a heart to die...
I would want to live longer...


If I do not want what you want, please try not to tell me that my want is wrong. Or if I believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view. Or if my emotion is less than yours, or more, given the same circumstances, try not to ask me to feel more strongly or weakly. Or yet if I act, or fail to act, in the manner of your design for action, let me be.
I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me. That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a copy of you.
I may be your spouse, your parent, your offspring, your friend, or your colleague. If you will allow me any of my own wants, or emotions, or beliefs, or actions, then you open yourself, so that some day these ways of mine might not seem so wrong, and might finally appear to you as right for me. To put up with me is the first step to understanding me. Not that you embrace my ways as right for you, but that you are no longer irritated or disappointed with me for my seeing waywardness. And in understanding me you might come to prize my differences from you, and, far from seeking to change me, preserve and even nurture those differences.
I would want to live longer...


Being loved in the present brings up all the ways in which we were not loved in the past. No amount of love in the present, not a single person, not ten thousand people loving us all at once, can make up for or take away the pain of the betrayals of the past. . .
I would want to live longer...


My inner demon is a metaphor for a very frightening situation.I have been unable to trust anyone for a really long time. Whether they be friends or family, well, for strangers it was easier to talk to. Any physical contact was like a sharp knife. I suppose I built a mental block to keep it from destroying me, but from what I've observed now, I also destroyed many bonds with many people who I loved. Reestablishing them now will be a tough task, so I have come to accept things are they are now. C'est la vie. It's time to move on.... What many of you have experienced are indeed true demons. For me, this was something I knew that few people could relate to, and being at that early stage in my life has led to a deeper understanding of who I am. I hope no one has to ever go through what I did in order to be here as I am today. I've accepted it as a part of me, but letting go to see the truth can be just as difficult as starting life all over again. Fear, Anger and Hate. These things serve only to remind us the frailty of the human race. A single step and we're in the animal kingdom. Even so, some things in life are out of our control. Sometimes, we lose ourselves in the darkness and someone has to bring the light back before we can see the world clearly again. Often times, I don't want to face that reality. But who here can deny there are people who wouldn't waste a second to take advantage of you? Inevitably, we're left to our own devices.
Fortunately, there are good people in this world. It's whether or not we can see it as truth that determines what we will do next.
I would want to live longer...


I think that many people don't realize that fear is a kind of demon.
Not making other people afraid. Your own fear.
My fear is definitely my demon. I'm not a mean person, it's just not in me; but I can be a cowardly one. And my cowardice probably hurts more people than any other flaw of mine.
I don't approach people, because I can't stand the thought of rejection - or even awkwardness. I don't return calls, because I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing. I don't take risks - or I take them, but leave the follow-up steps hanging when I realize that real life is scarier than the ideals that led me to try in the first place.
I hate my fear with a passion, but I can't always see it, and so it haunts me, binding me without me even realizing it.
Sometimes fear can be a beautiful thing - it can warn us and protect us, and when you embrace your fear, when you can tame it and overcome it, you feel... human, truly human. Or maybe human isn't the word. You feel awake. Like destiny isn't a sea that washes over you, but the thing upon which you sail, something that you use to direct yourself.
But it's awfully hard to get there. Sometimes you don't even know what it is you're afraid of...
I suppose the cure for fear is to face it, but fear is a subtle thing which hides, and the battle can be exhausting.
I would want to live longer...


They say that everyone has a dark side, A side unseen by all their friends.Mine is one of the few that has rarely been seen, When this inner demon takes hold inside of me.Its my black rage that gives it power, Its anger and rage magnified by a thousand thoughts of revenge.Its rage brings nothing but death and sadness, No one controls my inner demon but me, and sometimes, even I don't control it.My roar of rage is long and loud, You messed with a deadly force, And forced my hand, By messing with those I hold dear.You've fallen for good, One of the few who dared to oppose me, and my inner demon from hell.Your one the few who survived, To tell the tale of my inner demon's power.....
I would want to live longer...


I have maintained an extreme level of anger and solitude over periods of my life...And in doing so I've developed into a devil...So in order to know me is to accept an angelic demon.
I would want to live longer...


It took me by surprise when I saw you standing there. Close enough to touch, breathing the same air. You asked me how I've been, I guess thats when I smiled and said just fine. But I was lying. What i really meant to say is I'm dying here inside. I miss you more each day. There's not a night I havn't cried. Baby here's the truth, I'm still in love with you. And thats what I really meant to say.
I would want to live longer...


If tomorrow can be terrible than today..today is better.If tomorrow is better than today..today is the worst.If today and tomorrow are going to be the same.... i am Happy.
I would want to live longer...


Read this "HATE letter".

1 "The great love that I have for you
2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you
3 grows every day. When I see you,
4 I do not even like your face;
5 the one thing that I want to do is to
6 look at other girls. I never wanted to
7 marry you. Our last conversation
8 was very boring and has not
9 made me look forward to seeing you again.
10 You think only of yourself.
11 If we were married, I know that I would find
12 life very difficult, and I would have no
13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
14 to give, but it is not something that
15 I want to give to you. No one is more
16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
17 able to care for me and help me.
18 I sincerely want you to understand that
19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
20 if you think this is the end. Do not try
21 to answer this. Your letters are full of
22 things that do not interest me. You have no
23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that
25 I am still your boyfriend."

"READ BETWEEN THE LINES", meaning-only to read 1.3.5.7.9.11.13.15.17.19.21.23.25. (Odd Numbers) So..Please try reading it again!
I would want to live longer...


Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT? What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?
I would want to live longer...


Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fighting Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
I would want to live longer...


After a while you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul.And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning And company doesn't mean security.And you begin to understand that kisses aren't contracts And presents aren't promises,And you begin to accept your defeats With your head held high and your eyes wide open.With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.You learn to build your roads On today because tomorrow's ground Is too uncertain for plans, and futures have A way of falling down in midflight.After a while you learn that even sunshine Burns if you get too much.So you plant your own garden and decorate Your own soul, instead of waiting For someone to bring you flowers.And you learn that you really can endure,That you really are strong.And you really do have worth.And you learn and learn...and you learn With every goodbye you learn.
I would want to live longer...


I walk down the street.There is a hole.I don't see it.I fall in.It isn't my fault.It takes a very long time to get out.
I walk down the same street.There is still a deep hole.I pretend not to see it.I fall in.I pretend it's still not my fault.It takes a long time to get out.
I walk down the same street.There is still the same deep hole.I see it.I fall in anyway.It's a habit.I get out quicker this time.
I walk down the same street.There is a deep hole.I see it.I walk around it.I don't fall in.
I walk down a different street.
I would want to live longer...


You have too many “too late” in your life. Too late to express your love to someone, too late to apologize for your wrongdoings, too late to retrieve your fault, too late to fulfill your promise, too late to send out your regards and wishes, too late to say goodbye or give a hug, and the list goes on….Too much “too late” has left you with regret, despair, tears, annoyances and troubles. my dear friend you are just too late Reasha
I would want to live longer...


"The question isn't who is going to let me; it's who is going to stop me." So it is written, so it shall come to pass.
I would want to live longer...


In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

Bismi Allahi alrrahman alrraheem

1:2
Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the worlds;

Alhamdu lillahi rabbi alAAalameen

1:3
Most Gracious, Most Merciful;

Alrrahman alrraheem

1:4
Master of the Day of Judgment.

Maliki yawmi alddeen

1:5
Thee do we worship, and Thine aid we seek.

Iyyaka naAAbudu wa-iyyaka nastaAAeen

1:6
Show us the straight way;

Ihdina alssirata almustaqeem

1:7
The way of those on whom Thou hast bestowed Thy Grace, those whose (portion) is not wrath, and who go not astray.

Sirata allatheena anAAamta AAalayhim ghayri almaghdoobi AAalayhim wala alddalleen
I would want to live longer...


اگر تم اللہ کو (اخلاص اور نیک نیتی سے) اچھا قرض دوگے تو وہ اسے تمہارے لئے کئی گنا بڑھا دے گا اور تمہیں بخش دے گا، اور اللہ بڑا قدر شناس ہے بُردبار ہے

If ye loan to Allah, a beautiful loan, He will double it to your (credit), and He will grant you Forgiveness: for Allah is most Ready to appreciate (service), Most Forbearing
I would want to live longer...


O Lord! I make my complaint unto thee, of my feebleness, the vanity of my efforts. I am insignificant in the sight of men, O Thou Most Merciful! Lord of the weak! Thou aret my Lord! Forsake me not. Leave me not a prey to strangers, nor to mine enemies. If Thou art not displeased, I am safe. I seek refuge in the light of Thy countenance, by which all darkness is dispelled, and peace cometh in the Here and Hereafter. Solve Thou my difficulties as it pleaseth Thee. There is no power, no strength, save in Thee.”
I would want to live longer...


Anguish, fear, and sorrow, are emotions we all feel, but never more strongly than in our adolescence. When just having an acne-rabid skin, can mean a lifetime of loneliness. One's acceptance by others, is a barometer of one's popularity. If one is different, a misfit, maybe unattractive, unathletic, one is in for a lifetime of cruelty and suffering, that will traumatize permanently. You see scars are souvenirs you never loose. The past is never far. You can try to repress it. You can try to hold it back. You can try to deny it. But it will still continue to grow... stronger, and stronger. Like a malignant cancer, that can't be satiated. Each of us manifests our pain in different manners. Whether it's three in the morning in bed... tears in one's eye. Whether it's a need to destroy everything beautiful, or just simply shutting one's self off from society. My father never gave me what I needed, so I understand what it's like to do without. They should understand this. They should give what's needed. I can see this. I can feel their pain. Why can't they understand?
I would want to live longer...


The entire purpose of human existence, is to kindle a light in the darkness of being. We are a nation of hollow stuffed people; bleeding together; heads stuffed with straw. Like wind in an empty street, or rats feet over broken glass in a dark and forgotten cellar. So it is written. So it shall come to pass.
I would want to live longer...


My earliest memories are not of anything specific, they're more like memories of feelings as opposed to events. feelings of abandonment, feelings of loneliness, feelings of sadness. They say our destiny is formed in these earliest moments. That our fate is determined at this critical juncture. The chosen begin their path towards greatness, the ill-fated are doomed from the beginning. The unfortunate devour themselves, searching for annihilation. You see we are all prisoners of our own nature, locked in certain patterns of behavior. I could no sooner change the path that I've been placed upon, than stop a swallow from migrating, or a samu from spawning. So it is written, so it shall come to pass.
I would want to live longer...


Every one of you craves life's pleasures, yet you don't indulge. You want to drink from ecstacy's cup, yet you won't imbibe. You want to walk the edge, like Nero, but you're afraid to fall, so you back away, slowly, hoping no one notices your frailties, your cowardice. You wish you weren't so weak, and you hurt. Well what do you know about pain!? Try walking in my shoes. Experience my sorrow, a childhood without hope, a life without joy. But hey, at least you'll be alive. They say the Nero is the Flock's guide down alienation's barren path. But really, I walk alone....
I would want to live longer...


They said things would be different when I got older, but they lied. In primary school, I was despised, I was hated, and I was attacked for being different. It's no different now. I'm still hated, I'm still despised, and I'm still being attacked on a regular basis, whether it's Tinkerbell, or Reasha, or any another representative of society's norm. Well, what about me!! What about NERO!!
I would want to live longer...


You did it bitch. Keyser Soze said the greatest trick that the devil ever pulled was convincing the world that he didnt exist. Well , I exist and I'm going to be your own personal demon because this savior has already been crucified for your sins...
I would want to live longer...


Pain and suffering.....Of a childhood lost...An empty swing....An empty promise....A broken dream...A broken home....It's strange....How laughter looks like crying.....With no sound.....And raindrops taste like tears....Without the pain..... You'll relive....The turmoil...And anguish...Of an uncertain youth..
I would want to live longer...


Trust and hate, and love and fate, and I don't understand. Social grace, the human race, confuse me. These words I speak, bring forth a world of emotions. Emotions of dreams lost, dreams found, and dreams I'll never see.
I would want to live longer...


Gone are the days of normalcy. Gone are the days of conformity. I feel your pain. I am your oppotunity for salvation. Isn't it time you come with me? For I shall set you free.
I would want to live longer...


I can't remember a time when I wasn't alone, even when my parent were around. The sound of their fury was harsh, but the sound of their silence was deafining. It's devastation that left me buried beneath a mountain of solitude. My lonliness and despair traped me in a storm of unimaginable emptiness. What about me? What about Mika? The other kids playing ball outside, and me with them was am illusion I'd allow myself, but the stark reality was even if my parents would of allowed me to leave my bedroom dwell, the other kids wouldn't of allowed me to join in anyway. They said I didn't follow their rules. Their stupid rules... Quote me, nevermore.
I would want to live longer...


Time goes by,life goes on, and all I can think of is why you're gone. I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that I hated you. That sooner or later I would come to believe it.But I now realize that by lying, it makes me want you even more my dear sighs
I would want to live longer...


It hurts to see the one you love happy with someone else, but it is more painful to see the you are with unhappy with you.
The heart does heal and you will love like this again... only when you do, you will deny you ever felt like this before.
Why am I afraid to lose you when you're not even mine...
You will know that you love someone when you want her to be happy.Even if that means you're not a part of her happiness.
I was born the day you kissed me, died the day you left me, but lived for the time that you loved me
I will always love her,I just won't love the way she treated me.
I cried when I knew I lost you,afraid I had lost it all.Then I realized that losing you, didn't have to mean I lost me.
One day you will seek love and be sorry that you threw mine away
I would want to live longer...


Memories are the best souvenirs.
Parting of loving someone is learning to let go.
Take a look at what you have. Think of all you did to get it.Remember it only takes one second to lose.
It's better to be with no one than to be with the wrong one.
Happiness is the best revenge!!!
Should I hate you because you hurt me? Or should I love you because you made me feel special?
Deep down you know it's best for yourself,but you hate the thought of me being with someone else.
Now I believe it when people say love is blind...'cause I must have been blind to love a person like you.
I would want to live longer...


Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. not just in the mind. It's a soul hurt, a body hurt, a real gets inside you and rips you apart pain. I hate love.
I would want to live longer...


So now I know the things I know And do the things I do And if you do not like me so To hell, my love, with you.
Love is a word that is constantly heard, Hate is a word that is not. Love, I am told, is more precious than gold. Love, I have read, is hot. But Hate is the verb that to me is superb, And Love but a drug on the mart. Any kiddie in school can Love like a fool, But Hating, my boy, is an Art.
Roses are red, Violets are blue. That's what the tell me, 'cause I'm blind.
Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep, If I should die before I wake, I'll cry in anguish, "Mistake!! Mistake!!"
There once was a guy from Umass He never went to class But he showed up one day Oh, screw this I need a lay.
There once was an old man of Esser, Whose knowledge grew lesser and lesser, It at last it grew so small He knew nothing at all, And now he's a college professor.
Now I lay me down to study, I pray the Lord I won't go nutty. If I should fail to learn this junk, I pray the Lord I will not flunk. But if I do, don't pitty me at all, Just lay my bones in the dorm hall. Tell my prof I did my best, Then pile my books upon my chest. Now I lay me down to rest, And pray I'll pass tomorrow's test. If I should die before I wake, That's one less test I'll have to take!
I would want to live longer...


If I seem to give a damn, please tell me. I would hate to be giving the wrong impression if you all get my drift my dear frends
I would want to live longer...


you told me every cloud has a silver lining Reasha but i beg to differ, casue i think, Every cloud has a silver lining (except for the mushroom shaped ones, which have a lining of Iridium & Strontium 90)
I would want to live longer...


does it matter that im broken, does it matter that i fail? does it matter that im different, does it even matter anymore?
I would want to live longer...


It's a screwup day for nero as always.. sighs it will be better tomorrow i guess.. cause I learn to smile even wen it's hard that's what matters
I would want to live longer...


choose Darkness over day, my path lost its own direction because you brought black summer rain to my footsteps, while u played the crying victim. I am suffocate with the lack of sun is there any hope for this faithless soul?
what are you suffering for? this is your own personal war, my heart is only filled with dark blood, there is nothing but anger burning inside me. I use to be your protector, but one day you chose to fracture that bond. You were telling me to go, there is no truth in your lips, your eyes our glazed with deceit , I wont be taken by the monsoon, you will drown with all your secrets and lies. The devil holds your hand, don't reach out for me I'll be riding the kings highway.You shall lay in a watery grave as I bath in a fountain of light.
All I ever wanted was to truly be with you, now you run wild, naked, and lost in a vast abbeys of darkness yelling for forgiveness as your fingers tear at your eyes , but now all your left with is the screams,the screams of all the sins you caused ,I got so much to dream about, I wont be sleeping tonight don't want to waste anymore time, nobody wait up for me I am riding the monsoon back to the sun while I sing along to the hymn of my completeness .
I would want to live longer...


Black summer rains falls on my aching soul. You were there to break my heart did you expect me to run in fear? you expected me to surrender lose all my loving thoughts, just runaway my inner sides wont turn to ash. I paid for your lies and mistakes, this season has become so cold, I fear that this will be our end.
I would want to live longer...


Broken mirror on my wall Tell me if I'm fair at all When i look into your shards All i see is ugly scars On my skin and inside Marks to show every tear Ive cried Every time Ive been violated For every person whose spoken of me with hatred Every scar is like a memory Imprinted in my skin That i put there When my patience wore thin Broken mirror on my wall Tell me if I'm broken too And if every memory i hold Is really true
I would want to live longer...