Trying to put the hurt behind.
Trying so hard to clear my mind.
Putting on a smile, trying to make it real.
Working to evaporate the pain I feel.
I've been hurting people I care for.
I've been trying to search for something more.
I'm a murderer killing friendships one by one.
But I'm dropping the knife, I'm done.
hope you understand how much I need you here.
I really need you to help battle the fear.
How can I be sure that you won't leave?
Will you break the heart that I wear on my sleeve?
I'm handing it to you against my will.
The thought of trust gives me a chill.
I'm afraid of falling, but I know you'll catch me.
I'm sorry for all the pain I made you see.
Once again, I never mean to cause you pain.
I just wandered off my path and went insane.
I'm crawling my way back to common ground.
Secretly wishing there was a way you could be around.
Can you break through the walls I built so high?
Can you give me a million and one reasons why?
Don't follow behind me, walk beside.
Hold my hand, and at the end of each day know how hard I tried.
All for you, and not really me.
Because only you accept the hurt I see..
I would want to live longer...