I sit here and think of how we should be..


and I think of why we aren't..

the sun is setting and the sky is crying..

I wish I could say that the moisture on my cheeks is the rain..

but that would be a lie.

I wish the rain could wash away the guilt.

and the unknowns of what the future holds.

But thats not gonna happen..

we're too far gone.

and we cant turn back.

I wish I could believe

that you'll always love me.

but I can't..

because Love isn't forever..

it's only for the moment...

and I know that if I was to die tonight..

that you wouldnt care...

you wouldnt think twice about me..

you wouldn't be at my funeral

wishing I was alive.

you wouldn't be there looking in my casket

wishing I could breathe..

wishing I could look up and smile at you.

because you never cared..

because my fake smile faded..

melted into the plastic of my heart.

and the darkness of my soul.

the smile I wore is gone

replaced by the tears.

the strong wall of my emotions has fallen.

and I don't know how to rebuild it.

I can only hope he's as good as I am..

because you'll never have a guy as good as me...

I'm one of a kind...

best believe..

that these tears I shead are not for you

but are for me.
I would want to live longer...