Let’s get something straight


Once and for all

I don’t call, I’m not taking a fall

And the wall that you encased around my heart?

I retrieved it before it turned to hate



This is straight into the bloodstream

Of your consciousness

You’re a hot mess

And to think I was considering you to be part of

The process that allowed me to survive any test



This is straight into your brain

Your visual cortex

You can perplex me no more

I know the score, 2 + 2 IS four

I’ve reached the shore after months of

Swimming in the abyss of misery



Leave

me

the

fuck

alone



My heart is now the happy home of clear tranquility



But please, continue to talk about me

Cuss at me

And don’t forget, lie to me



Yes, I said lie to me

It’s what you’ve done best

Never was I worthy of the rest of your heart

Only the part that you wanted me to hold

Not the part that’s rampaging and cold

Bold enough to tell me that I think with my dick

That’s a trick, for wasn’t that the dick that

Made your mind and body click??



Oh wait, that was a lie too

But look at me, no ‘boo hoo hoo’



On my end, just my ability to depend on my own character



This is no subliminal message

I want this to be loud and clear

And anyone that holds you or I dear

Will see it and know I have no fear

And know exactly what I’m talking about



Attack my character??

Fine, let your mind revolve around your own reality

You and your version of “Must-See-Me, Me, Me”

Can just go away now and let me be



I wish it was chapter I could re-write,

I would have never written it in the first place

What a waste

Every fucking moment

I would have left it in space



And while flawed and imperfect,

I know when enough is enough

And I’m not that tough to be beaten on time and time again

And when the ticking time bomb goes off

And like the leaf that blows in the wind

The reality is you were still never the thing I needed most



To be my better Half....
I would want to live longer...